I'm torn between two ideas. The first being that you're too good to be true and that I shouldn't let you go. The second being that you're too good to be true and that's wrong. I usually find little things to nit pick at guys which leads to me being continuously single. I'm trying not to do that with you, but I'm finding it hard. Is there such thing as somebody being too nice? I never thought that could be true, but with you I feel like it is. You're too nice and it's annoying me. I honestly don't know why. I know that you are unlike any guy that I have ever dated, and yet I'm turned on and turned off by it at the same time. I'm trying to give you the benefit of the doubt because I know that I nit pick, and I don't want to be single forever. I do want a relationship. So I honestly need to take a chill pill and relax. I just don't know how to shut my brain off and stop thinking.
I wrote this above statement the other day, and after days of just living in the moment I realize you may not be too good to be true. You may just be exactly who I've been looking for. Someone to pull me out of this rut that I've been in, stuck in the past, rethinking regrets. I want to live in the present. In the here and now and right now the present is you.
I know I am closed off from my emotions, and that's because with each day and year and stupid guy I have put up wall after wall to protect myself from heartache. You said that you believe that I am a deep person and I said that I'm like an onion, I have many layers (yes, I totally quoted Shrek). If you are willing to peel off my layers one by one and break down my walls, I want to see where this adventure leads us.
